Lately I've been feeling particularly down in the dumps. I think it's partly due to the raging hormones and partly the fact that we just had our 1 year anniversary of being in Colorado but I've been feeling very lonely, isolated and the distance between us and our family and friends feels like it's gotten bigger.
While most days I do feel an underlying sadness of being away from everything familiar and "home" like to us I try desperately to put on a brave and happy face for Jackson because he is the kind of child that hangs on to my every emotion. Recently it's been harder and harder to put on a happy face.
I miss being able to call up a friend and meet up for a fun afternoon...I miss our family being able to see Jackson and vice versa....I miss feeling comfortable with where I am when I go outside or driving around...I miss everything.
I do think some of the problem is that this pregnancy is exhausting me so bad that it's hard for me to get up the energy to deal with a very unpredictable 2 year old in public which involves chasing, diffusing of tantrums, giving back of toys he's taken which he thinks are his and the general whining. Makes it a bit hard to meet people when your kid can't stay in one area of the playground long enough for you to get out more than 3 words to another mom.
Just having a hard time being away from home.....
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